Broke Up

Tell you a story.

One more step for everyone's life, one more phase for everybody's journey. some friends make my own life being so wonderful to play. such a musical concert which attended by million fans. how could you understand what's the Creator would give you? how could you knowing what's the Creator gonna give you before you receive? such question always exist.

once you got everything you need, once you feel how expendable your life is, you found that all of this just a piece of cake. "nothin' special" you said. "that's all just an ordinary" you say again.

one night after, i cannot sleep well. everything's come and go just like the wind. "so what's this is all about? it's not just you, it's us" i think. "you need to talk to her, tell her everything" some voice come to my ear. the day is today. struggle for your life.

i felt that the most precious thing you have will become more precious when you lost it. maybe not just precious....

Painfull Idiocy (2)

Just a "nother" story.

I feel lonely for sure,it's doleful deep down there. I think that I need someone to lay down on their lap. Four days later, I see my friend, just call her "rail". She is a girl (of course!). I know her about two years, but i've been her (best) friend about a year. Many things had happen to both of us. Since she feel cozy with me, and so do i. We've share many stories, about love, 'bout friends, 'bout life, and so on. When i need her, she'll be there, and when she needs me, i'll be there too, just like business I think. You give me something, i give you someother thing.

I just remember that we've been not talk each other for a week. Usually, when i forget about her, she'll call me, and also i did when she forget me. That saturday night (four days after part 1 story), i call her by cellphone. No answer. Then i hang around the city with my self. 30 minutes after, she send me a short-message-service. Here she said,

"What's up bro?"
"It's nothing, i just need you to accompany me, as usual we did. Where were you?" i answered.
"Uh, sorry, i gotta go with someother guy."
"Hah?Which guy?It's very rare i don't know 'a guy'...i thought you hang around with Dream, Fancy and others."
"Hehe, not with them this time." She answered some of my questions.
"Do you mind to tell me who's the guy?"

She don't answer this time. Try to rule out any posibbiliy, i stop in a small cafe. Ten minutes after she answer,
"What are you doing now?"
"Hey, you don't answer my last question, and now you ask me 'what are you doing?'...Who are you?You're not like Rail i know. Do you hide something?" i answer.
"Uh oh...which question?"
"The guy that tonight have a DATE with you."
"Ow that one? It's Romirt."
"What??? Romirt? Romirt Attna? Are you his girlfriend now?"
"Yep!"
"How come? You ever said that you'll never ever EVER love him?"
"Yeah...you're right."
"Oohh...so, my friend now take back what own has desspised."
"Damn you. Hehehe, i can't lie to my own feeling, Amn"
"Ouw..." i can say nothing now...
She'd forget her own word. Take back what her own has desspised. She know that i HATE hypocrite. And it's been a week she'd lie to me! And it means that she have been a week be a hypocrite for me. I feel so desperate this time, more than yesterday. That Ruaswig still hang around in my mind, then this Rail also playing with her inside this heart. No place to lay, no heart to take a rest, no thing...here it comes another PAINFULL IDIOCY , this time it called FRIENDSHIP!

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Yep yep yep...second part is done. So, what do you think? is the guy an selfish? or it's Rail that selfish? And what will you do if you are the guy?
in this story, somepart is my real friend stories that ever said to me. then i put little fiction on'em. Please feel free to send comments.

Painfull Idiocy (1)

Just a story.

so, the story is about a girl (of course) and a guy (let's call this character with " i " to make it easier to understand)...let's call her ruasgwi...

i love ruasgwi...i knew her about 2 years ago, when we join an event that conducted by some guy called MEB. we gotta to "play around" just for their unnecessesary activity actually useless. ruaswig is not my love at first sight, maybe it's because the unreasonable actions that i gotta be accompany her for (atleast) two semester. almost everyday and happen every week. people says "love come from your habitual actions"...it's quietly right for me.

just talk in sunset-days...maybe that's a small thing...for her...but it become more painfull when she said, "i love someone"...else...then she began to tell every feeling that she has...everything....every moment, every meeting, every small thing that i'd never imagine before. she fall in love for sure. to make it more complicated, i make an imaginary question to her. "what if i love you for sure, what say you" i said.

"hahaha, i'll lough over and over again, then say that i couldn't believe my ear..hahaha" she answered.

then i just smile. since then i decided that i would never catch her anymore. maybe it's a lame decision. why don't you just say it for real to her, maybe she'll understand and have the same feeling as you. that's how a naive guy will thinking...i don't care what you said, it is me.

for a year later, i just talk to her as a friend, she think the best one maybe. yes it's hurt, but that's life. so bullshit. i try to manage it with other girl. closer and i feel closer to this girl. then i confess my feeling...this time she said,"thanks, be my friends is better."

some feeling inside me are angry, dissapointed, and i said again,"thanks for ever in my heart, we're still friend, but not like how we used to."

day after day, ruaswig return in my mind. that feeling also return. i never felt something like this before. girls are fro and go just like a movie. this feeling strongly remind me...do not shut your mouth! say it!

the next week i will say it, i decided. but, some news broke my heart again. i will not forget this day, July 1st in 2009, she have a boyfriend. start today, i'll say,"LOVE IS BULLSHIT!"

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that's the first story about my friend. will you said that the guy stupid? or just the girl(ruaswig) can't understanding someother feeling?
please, feel free to send comments...
-GBU-

Reason and Courage

Yakusoku no jikan sugite noni
Ayamaru yousu mo nakute
Tsukihi ga tattemo hito wa
Hikari ni kawaranai yone
Anohi mitoki wo subeta kioku ga kyuu ni
Poppukon mitai ni hajiketa
Mada makutemo iijanai
Hisashiburi ni aetakaratte
Donna tokimo kimi no koto
Wasureru hazumo nai
Datta itsumo sou kimi ga
Konnanimo yuuki kurerukara

Even the promise time is passed
You don't seem to apologize
Even time passed
People can transfer to become the light
Oneday, the memory slips from the fruit tree suddenly
And pops up like popcorn
You shouldn't cry now
Although we haven't met for long time and we met now
Whatever it is,
I didn't forget about you
Because...yeah, you
Gave this much courage

Dream

Donna yumenandarou oikakeruyo
Kimi ga tsubuyaku mitaini yuu
Tooi sakitatta mirai wa
Imasugu soba wo hashitte iku mienai koede
Saken dette
Kizutsuita karada ima tokashitai
Kono itami wa tada
Watashi wo kirisaite
Ashita wo uranau inori ga habaku made
I pray night and day

"I'm going to chase my dream, whatever it might be"
You say it like you are whispering
The future, which was far away
Is now running alongside you with an invisible voice
Yelling!
A wounded body, now I want to melt
This pain is just
Slashing me
Until my prayer comes true, which tells tomorrows fortune
I pray night and day

Some Words for Your Loneliness

Kirei na mizutamari uta detai no wa nani?
Minna, miyo sora ni
Matataiteiru hoshi no kazu hodo no deai kara
Ari wo manandari, chizu wo morattari
Tsunagau beku
Itsuka de kuru peiji ni
Hito no takusan no hitokazu deru
Hajimare, nagai nagai kimi monogatari

And the puddle they leave inspires me to sing?
Everyone, look at the sky
So full of twingkling new friends, waiting to meet you
You'll form your own bonds as you learn of the world
And get your own map to follow
Someday, there will be a page
Where countless new people walk into your life
And so it begins, your own long, long story

Lirik Lagu ~ HOLIDE - Kupegang Cintamu

Ini sedikit lirik lagu dari band teman saya, yah easy listening lah. Namanya HOLIDE (baca: 'holide' bukan 'holaid'). Kalau mau download di sini.

Ini lirik lagunya.

HOLIDE - Kupegang Cintamu

Walau lama tak berjumpa,
Namun cinta tetap aku jaga,
Bagaimana dengan dirimu?
Masih adakah setia itu...

Jangan kau fikir 'ku tak mengenalmu,
Karena 'ku sudah mengenal hatimu,
Aku tak tahu kehidupanmu,
Tapi aku pegang...cintamu...

T'lah 'ku coba lain hati,
Kau pun juga pernah melalui,
Tapi cinta tak ada di sembarang tempat,
Seperti sampah yang berserakan,

Jangan kau fikir 'ku tak mengenalmu,
Karena 'ku sudah mengenal hatimu,
Aku tak tahu kehidupanmu,
Tapi aku pegang...cintamu...

Andaikan kau datang kembali,
Berjanjilah 'tuk tetap disampingku...

Jangan kau fikir 'ku tak mengenalmu, ('ku mengenalmu)
Karena 'ku sudah mengenal hatimu lebih dulu,
Aku tak tahu kehidupanmu, ('ku tahu hatimu)
Tapi aku pegang...cintamu...

Jangan kau fikir 'ku tak mengenalmu, ('ku mengenalmu)
Karena 'ku sudah mengenal hatimu lebih dulu,
Aku tak tahu kehidupanmu, ('ku tahu hatimu)
Tapi aku pegang...cintamu...
Cintamu...

Cinta dan Dengki

Cinta dan dengki seolah terbalik dan berjauhan. Mungkin banyak pula yang mengatakan kedua hal ini tak akan pernah sejalan. Padahal —menurut saya— dua rasa ini sedekat sahabat. Berdampingan setipis kertas A4 50gram. Pernah saya mendengar tentang makna cinta, kurang lebih begini bunyinya, “rasa saat mengendarai motor di tepi pantai pagi hari, saat memandang matahari terbit dari ujung cakrawala, saat menikmati makanan lezat, saat melihat film yang sangat menarik, dan kau ingin berbagi semua kejadian-kejadian itu dengan kekasihmu, yang dijadikan satu dalam kata cinta.” Semua rasa yang sangat menggetarkan perasaan itu dijadikan satu, bahkan kau bisa berbagi dengan orang yang kau panggil kekasih. Sungguh tak terkatakan. Dunia dikatakan milik berdua (yang lainnya hanya kontrak sewa). Itu saat kau masih kekasihnya.

Keesokan harinya kau berpisah dengannya. Alasan? Tidak ada. Hanya ingin berpisah, itu saja. Lusanya kau tahu dia telah berkekasih lagi. Kau, ditipu. Dengki menjadi dirimu. Cinta tadi telah pensiun. Dengki kini naik pangkat. Nyanyikanlah D’Clara – Benci Cintamu.

Lihat setipis kertas itu? Benar, bukan?

How God Give Us Present

if someone prays for their patients,
did God will give them patients?
or just give them the oppurtunities to be patient?

if you pray for courages God give you courage
or give the opportunities to be courage?

if someone pray for family to be close
you think God decepting them with warm fusion feeling?
or give them the opportunities to love each other?

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jika seseorang berdoa agar sabar,
apakah Tuhan membuatnya sabar?
atau Dia memberinya kesempatan untuk bersabar?

jika mereka berdoa agar berani,
apakah Tuhan membuatnya berani?
atau kesempatan untuk menjadi berani?

jika seseorang berdoa agar keluarganya semakin rukun...
apakah Tuhan membohongi mereka dengan memberi perasaan sayang yang hangat?
atau Dia memberi kesempatan pada mereka untuk saling menyayangi?

God's Protection

This is a nice story from my friend.

A teenage girl about 17 had gone to visit some friends one evening and time passed quickly as each shared their various experiences of the past year. She ended up staying longer thanplanned, and had to walk home alone.

She wasn't afraid because it was a small town and she lived only a few blocks away. As she walked along under the tall elm trees, Diane asked God to keep her safe from harm and danger.
When she reached the alley, which was a short cut to her house, she decided to take it. However, halfway down the alley she noticed a man standing at the end as though he were waiting for her.
She became uneasy and began to pray, asking for God's protection. Instantly a comforting feeling of quietness and security wrapped round her, she felt as though someone was walking with her.
When she reached the end of the alley, she walked right past the man and arrived home safely.

The following day, she read in the newspaper that a young girl had been raped in the same alley just twenty minutes after she had been there. Feeling overwhelmed by this tragedy and the fact that it could have been her, she began to weep. Thanking the Lord for her safety and to help this young woman, she decided to go to the police station. She felt she could recognize the man, so
she told them her story.

The police asked her if she would be willing to look at a lineup to see if she could identify him. She agreed and immediately pointed out the man she had seen in the alley the night before. When the man was told he had been identified, he immediately broke down and confessed. The officer thanked Diane for her bravery and asked if there was anything they could do for her.
She asked if they would ask the man one question. Diane was curious as to why he had not attacked her.

When the policeman asked him, he answered, "Because she wasn't alone. She had two tall men walking on either side of her."
Amazingly, whether you believe or not, you're never alone. Did you know that 98% of teenagers will not stand up for God?

Let's Share Anything

Here i begining to compose my blog consistently. Let the past gone and i want to start something new. See you soon.

-vinz-