Broke Up

Tell you a story.

One more step for everyone's life, one more phase for everybody's journey. some friends make my own life being so wonderful to play. such a musical concert which attended by million fans. how could you understand what's the Creator would give you? how could you knowing what's the Creator gonna give you before you receive? such question always exist.

once you got everything you need, once you feel how expendable your life is, you found that all of this just a piece of cake. "nothin' special" you said. "that's all just an ordinary" you say again.

one night after, i cannot sleep well. everything's come and go just like the wind. "so what's this is all about? it's not just you, it's us" i think. "you need to talk to her, tell her everything" some voice come to my ear. the day is today. struggle for your life.

i felt that the most precious thing you have will become more precious when you lost it. maybe not just precious....

Painfull Idiocy (2)

Just a "nother" story.

I feel lonely for sure,it's doleful deep down there. I think that I need someone to lay down on their lap. Four days later, I see my friend, just call her "rail". She is a girl (of course!). I know her about two years, but i've been her (best) friend about a year. Many things had happen to both of us. Since she feel cozy with me, and so do i. We've share many stories, about love, 'bout friends, 'bout life, and so on. When i need her, she'll be there, and when she needs me, i'll be there too, just like business I think. You give me something, i give you someother thing.

I just remember that we've been not talk each other for a week. Usually, when i forget about her, she'll call me, and also i did when she forget me. That saturday night (four days after part 1 story), i call her by cellphone. No answer. Then i hang around the city with my self. 30 minutes after, she send me a short-message-service. Here she said,

"What's up bro?"
"It's nothing, i just need you to accompany me, as usual we did. Where were you?" i answered.
"Uh, sorry, i gotta go with someother guy."
"Hah?Which guy?It's very rare i don't know 'a guy'...i thought you hang around with Dream, Fancy and others."
"Hehe, not with them this time." She answered some of my questions.
"Do you mind to tell me who's the guy?"

She don't answer this time. Try to rule out any posibbiliy, i stop in a small cafe. Ten minutes after she answer,
"What are you doing now?"
"Hey, you don't answer my last question, and now you ask me 'what are you doing?'...Who are you?You're not like Rail i know. Do you hide something?" i answer.
"Uh oh...which question?"
"The guy that tonight have a DATE with you."
"Ow that one? It's Romirt."
"What??? Romirt? Romirt Attna? Are you his girlfriend now?"
"Yep!"
"How come? You ever said that you'll never ever EVER love him?"
"Yeah...you're right."
"Oohh...so, my friend now take back what own has desspised."
"Damn you. Hehehe, i can't lie to my own feeling, Amn"
"Ouw..." i can say nothing now...
She'd forget her own word. Take back what her own has desspised. She know that i HATE hypocrite. And it's been a week she'd lie to me! And it means that she have been a week be a hypocrite for me. I feel so desperate this time, more than yesterday. That Ruaswig still hang around in my mind, then this Rail also playing with her inside this heart. No place to lay, no heart to take a rest, no thing...here it comes another PAINFULL IDIOCY , this time it called FRIENDSHIP!

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Yep yep yep...second part is done. So, what do you think? is the guy an selfish? or it's Rail that selfish? And what will you do if you are the guy?
in this story, somepart is my real friend stories that ever said to me. then i put little fiction on'em. Please feel free to send comments.

Painfull Idiocy (1)

Just a story.

so, the story is about a girl (of course) and a guy (let's call this character with " i " to make it easier to understand)...let's call her ruasgwi...

i love ruasgwi...i knew her about 2 years ago, when we join an event that conducted by some guy called MEB. we gotta to "play around" just for their unnecessesary activity actually useless. ruaswig is not my love at first sight, maybe it's because the unreasonable actions that i gotta be accompany her for (atleast) two semester. almost everyday and happen every week. people says "love come from your habitual actions"...it's quietly right for me.

just talk in sunset-days...maybe that's a small thing...for her...but it become more painfull when she said, "i love someone"...else...then she began to tell every feeling that she has...everything....every moment, every meeting, every small thing that i'd never imagine before. she fall in love for sure. to make it more complicated, i make an imaginary question to her. "what if i love you for sure, what say you" i said.

"hahaha, i'll lough over and over again, then say that i couldn't believe my ear..hahaha" she answered.

then i just smile. since then i decided that i would never catch her anymore. maybe it's a lame decision. why don't you just say it for real to her, maybe she'll understand and have the same feeling as you. that's how a naive guy will thinking...i don't care what you said, it is me.

for a year later, i just talk to her as a friend, she think the best one maybe. yes it's hurt, but that's life. so bullshit. i try to manage it with other girl. closer and i feel closer to this girl. then i confess my feeling...this time she said,"thanks, be my friends is better."

some feeling inside me are angry, dissapointed, and i said again,"thanks for ever in my heart, we're still friend, but not like how we used to."

day after day, ruaswig return in my mind. that feeling also return. i never felt something like this before. girls are fro and go just like a movie. this feeling strongly remind me...do not shut your mouth! say it!

the next week i will say it, i decided. but, some news broke my heart again. i will not forget this day, July 1st in 2009, she have a boyfriend. start today, i'll say,"LOVE IS BULLSHIT!"

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that's the first story about my friend. will you said that the guy stupid? or just the girl(ruaswig) can't understanding someother feeling?
please, feel free to send comments...
-GBU-